it feels good to feel and breathe some fresh air. even if it led me to purchase a 7$ REGULAR SIZE ass bubble tea from fucking CHATTIME that obviously wasn’t that good. solid 6.5/10. wow. I am disappointed in myself, hmm tbh…not really. it’s not taking space in my head.
but at least i got some fresh air.
today was full of anxiety. chest pains and everything. i felt stuck. but i was still doing stuff like the lil things while avoiding the big ones… i’m still proud to have taken the time to:
take some deep breaths,
drink some water - 4 glasses to be exact
turn on the diffuser to a relaxing lavender and bergamot blend,
try to get a big task started by identifying its clear sub-tasks, at least i tried man.
and FINALLY left my house to run an errand..on FOOT.
forgot my NIP when it was time to pay for my meds…but solved the issue! with google play..yeah I was blaming the paypass technology but in the end it saved me…HURRAY!
I cleaned my kitchen, as I have been doing every night for a while now
made myself a cake that I’ve been wanting to make
currently smiling, cuz I still did things. I spent lots of energy choosing products that I need to purchase cuz of a sale, making my Ikea order, looking for the Alchimist for my mom, and buying a carseat for kelz.
that’s what took the most time. and you know what? i can’t be mad at trying to be there for my mom and Kelz, and myself cuz I was choosing skin care products, and some items to organize my kitchen.
time flies. and I’m working on setting up the context to foster my success. and it is a….PROCESS.