I really wanna be there for my parents as much as I can
I wanna see them as much as I can
I want them to know how much i care
I’m scared to lose them
I’m scared of all of our ultimate fate.
we’re here temporarily
trynna make sense of this passage and sometimes,
it fkn sucks.
I hate feeling powerless. feeling like there’s nothing I can do to help the people I love. to see them suffer.
I know we’re all on our own journey tho…
hm. I think there’s something to do with ego. perhaps feeling powerless and fighting against it is not humility, but ego? having difficulty dealing with loved ones suffering. perhaps wanting to have the power to heal also is a selfish act of wanting to be okay? hm. I don’t think I am ultimately a selfish person, but I am open to admit that a part of me is in that regard.
maybe I should end this post on an affirmation? (ok, multiple random ones)
I AM HEALING
I AM POWERFUL
I AM ON THE RIGHT PATH
I TRUST MYSELF
I LOVE MYSELF
n.b. I really spent time looking for all the “i” to correct them with “I”. bitch. that wasn’t necessary. it’s ok if this “random” blog has feelings and is imperfect.