that escalated quickly

Isn’t it weird how driving can tire you??? Like you’re just sitting there, pressing a pedal - I’m sorry *2 pedals. If there’s traffic, forget it!! I just feel depleted after. Today is a different story tho…winter + snowstorm + potholes + traffic + downtown = LAWWDDDDDD. I was stressing the whole way through, so thats not even tiring, that’s EXHAUSTINGGGGG.

Why do we have to be “productive” so much?? Why can’t we pause life when terrible things happen like snowstorms? Well, obviously there’s more important crises happening all around the world, but still. Even for these crises, can’t we just stop, take a breath, and think about how to respond? Why do we have to be “on” all the time??

I have many questions.

I am tired.

Good night.

I’m actually not really going to bed, Imma go back to my “Truth or drink: spicy (lgbtq)….” YT video.

I was just so inspired by the video that I thought I’d leave with a truth…yaknow?

February 2nd, 2022

It’s officially Black History Month. I never really know how to truly feel about it.

I don’t know..celebration of our pain, suffering, tumultuous past, but also accomplishments which often are “the 1st black X” to have accomplished this..like ok great, but it mostly sounds like a compliance to the system..like oh look this person was able to use the tools…

…wow I closed my eyes mid-sentence and totally forgot what I was talking/typing about.

I think it’s a sign dat sleep gon’ be good tonight

Wait. My fingers were typing as i was writing, while my eyes were closed.

But it happened again and my fingers also took a quick pause. When I take a nap, or just sleep tbh my body parts are also taking naps. That’s why in the morning we feel more energized, cuz errbody snoozed. They all talk to each other and understand even if they all speak different languages. I guess I also understand. Like when my stomach’s like “ayoo ay, ay, what about a dinner date?” I know that means i gotta eat. Dirty talk. Duh. Get w the program!!

Ok tangeant ending. (Although, what if this content is just an amalgam of tangents with no pertinent story. Alright, well my eyes and fingers already told me they can’t support my body/brain. I’ll prepare my body for various tasks, aka, my night routine and heading to bed. (Conan’s Jordan Schlansky reference anyone? yeah probs not.)